AARRGGHHHH

For the past few days I have been overwhelmed. It has been hard to get to anything that could be seen as a luxury of time, like blogging in this case, so I decided to try to make sense of it right here....take a second to clear my mind.........now that I only have a second....

Lately reading comprehension has been consuming me....Gabe's right brain deficits courtesy of Autism and ADHD have him struggling with the main point. Because he has ADHD too, focus now becomes an issue. Funny how as things get more complex, you are able to sometimes see when it's the Autism, when it's the ADHD or when it's just him at 10....it splits up into different areas and then interlaps...much llike the workings of a brain......Anyway, I have been reading "Reading in the Brain" to try to understand how the brain in general processes reading and then what happens when something goes array....and how to fix it.....I'm half way through the book, and learning so much, but need to go through it rather slowly cause Lord knows my brain isn't what it should be.......So I'm immersed in all this, reading "How to Raise a Thinking Child" as well and reading with Gabe....tearing things down.....trying to really get him to think about the "why" and the "how"......reviewing all the visualizing techniques from Linda Mood Bell and trying desperately to hide the frustration and the fears.....wondering how it is that both he and I could be so lost in between the grey and white matters.....between the left and the right, the temporal, cortex, cerebellum and the frontal lobes........Perhaps in the end it's not balck and white, but white and grey where real answers lie.......But for now, teaching my son to think as we do raises so many questions, mainly just because he can't express an answer like we expect him too doesn't mean he doesn't have a valid one. I have always said literature is subjective, but what I do need to know, when I strip all the emotional, moral voices down, is that he is understanding what the text is about so that he could take away his own interpretation of it...whatever that may be.....and right now, honestly, sometimes he gets it, sometimes he doesn't........So why does it allude him....why does it sometimes connect and sometimes not????Wait, doesn't this happen to us all in other things????


So, in the midst of all this I get a knock on my door from a concerned neighbor who had gotten a letter from the water company. Did I get it???? Yes....Did I read it? No......So I found out what it said.....basically, they will be installing cell phone antennas on top of thier water tower....the one behind my backyard.....and my nieghbors.....Mind you they only bothered to alert those of us who can see it....The letter was matter of fact, and ended with a sorry for any inconvience.....I suppose by inconvience they mean "any health problem you will have to face, the cancers, the immune issues, the migraines, etc"....because no where in that letter did it mention the truth....that the closer one lives to a tower, the greater the chances of getting a very serious illness. They don't mention the low grade constant radio waves emitted from those antennas can effect every bit of life around them. They simply say sorry for any inconvience the construction of this and the closing of roads may cause......what about the pain the diagnosis costs, or the devaluing of our already devalued properties? Are they going to pay for all of that? No....they keep the profits and they make decisions regarding our community, the one we pay taxes through the nose to support, and the don't even have the courtesy to advise us all.....just mail a few of us a letter hoping that we will throw it away without ever bothering to open it.......
There are schools here. There are families here. There are already plenty of children living here with Autism, learning disabilities and cancer. There are small Mom and Pop shops here....there are shorelines here........life is lead here....................

So I've been researching......and I have been calling my Senator, my legislator, my assemblyman, my county executive, I spoke to the water company and it's chief engineer......and I now know why it is that education is always swept under the proverbial rug.....if our children grow up to be thinking adults and at the same time happen to have an iota of ethics, they will find themselves in big trouble.......And I wonder, just what part of our leaders brains, the CEO's brains are they using to justify harming a community, harming an envirnoment, denying any of it despite the data and the controversy, and still are able to try to sell themselves as having our best interests at heart??????

For years we have been saying that the only fair way to get things done, including Universal Health Care is to get the lobbyists out of all the houses......Last week, the Supreme Court made the unprecedented ruling of allowing corporations to give out limitless amounts of money towards candidates as campaign contributions.....slippery slope of epic porportions. When a corporations first amendment rights is equated to an individuals we are in big trouble......
Because we all know that the average citizens rights are trumped time and time again by big corporations, and anyone who has any doubt will have that diminished instantly the day they get a letter in the mail followed by a knock on the door.....Cell phone towers, my friends, do not belong in anyones backyards, or near any residential area.....Funny how quickly porn is cleaned up because it's bad for our kids and the moral outrage attached to it....but radiation? Ah shucks....what's a little radiation........what is wrong here?????????

And not for nothing...but here's a brilliant idea....you want to fund Universal Health Care? Then have the companies that neglect to follow the EPA guidelines and the companies that insist on making fast food even worse for you pay a special fine and tax into it.....I'm just saying, it seems fair.......No, wait, they are the ones who pay the most towards campaigns...I'm going out on a limb here, but I'm guessing the more they pay into it the more damage they can do to us all and the less they are held accountable.....Does that sound democratic to you???? Hmm......my bad......

So, lets review...I have spent the last 7 years trying desperately to recover my kid, buying organic, adhering to special diets and vitamins and supplements, incorportating all types of therapies, play, behavioral, educational, sensory....chelating him....reading everything I can get my hands on......fighting hard to get him verbal and well enough to get into an inclusion class....and then I find out that right in my backyard, a few feet away from his trampoline, his pool, his basketball court, his play area, low grade radio waves will be constantly present, like the air we breathe........My brain is going to EXPLODE........... because I just don't get it, I really don't.........................